Translated from the research of brother Hasan Molai

Abbas Mehmood Aqad writes in His book

“Ayesha was very sad and ashamed on her decision regarding day of Jamal; and She said in her rest of life that I wish I had died before Jamal; and She even said that: I wish I had 10 sons and I had faced the grief of their death but not been in Jamal; and whenever someone would talk of Jamal, her cloth would get wet with tears,”

[Siddiqa bin Siddiq; Abbas Mehmood Aqad, Page 105]